Today, I just doing my job, and feel empty, as usual without you or news from you, then suddenly my colleague asked me
“Since I know you, why you feel sad? Don’t ask, Everybody knows you are sad, what’s wrong?”
“Nothing, I’m fine, just this is what I am, maybe you think that i am sad, No, I’m not” I answered his question hope he will forget about it, and then he ask
“Do you have a girlfriend?”
“I have fiancée, so, don’t ask me such question anymore”
“No ring in ur finger, but you said that you have fiancée, I can understand, she didn’t answer ur love proposal right?”
“None of your business, just for your information, i have fiancée, that’s all, about anything else, it’s not connected with my jobdesk, so don’t ever ask me such personal question!”
then he suddenly say
“I don’t give a damn about your private information, but I know your brain is great enough to do this job, but you’re just STUPID. If she didn’t answer or reject your love proposal means SHE DIDN’T LOVE YOU ANYMORE!! I don’t know why she didn’t love you anymore, first either she really didn’t love you or never love you, or you do SOMETHING STUPID to her, it can be you cheated, treated her badly, or dumped her, if it’s the second reason.. EVEN IF SHE STILL LOVES YOU, SHE WILL ALWAYS REMEMBERED ALL OF YOUR MISTAKES, REMEMBER WOMAN’S HEART IS FRAGILE, ONCE YOU BREAK IT, SHE WILL HURT AND DIFFICULT TO FORGET IT, AND YOU NEVER REALIZED IT UNTIL YOU UNDERSTAND ALL OF YOUR MISTAKES! I will not fire you because of this, but I just want to say that you’re the stupid person I’ve ever know and…”
“Stop it!” I said
don’t know what to do, I left office in the afternoon, leaving all of my unfinished job..
Went to the park, and write this with my keyboard full of tears.
I’m sorry, Dasha..
Jakarta, March 9, 2018