Night without stars

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Hi dear diary.

Since I don’t have friends, I considered this blog as my diary and my best friend.

You know what, I miss Darya so much, miss her and feeling lonely without her. Proved that I feel empty without her.

I have a lot of questions, but I don’t want to discuss it, because then it can make argue and argue, and I’m tired of that.

I don’t know if she loves me or not, if she went to the U.S. just running away from me or chasing somebody that she found before, or.. or.. or.. i don’t know, i have millions trash in my mind, just from my brain.

And my heart is loving you, breaking my body, my mind and everything.

I never jealous for stay where she is, what is her job and so on, I always feel jealous for what she’s doing now, is she F somebody, is she love somebody, or the worse, is she forget me already.

In my post before, everybody is busy, yes, I’m in Jakarta, crowded city, but still, nobody and nothing can distract my mind for it, I feel hurt and it became worse.

But I should follow what she said, keep waiting,

I should, don’t be naive, Anggie.

Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end.

She always told me that.

I love her so much.

Tonight there are no stars in the sky, they’re hiding from me, because I am a bad person.

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