August, 16th 2018
Dearest Darya Pavlovna Ponomaryova
Sometimes, there are simply no words that can adequately express the depth of person’s feeling that are plagued by regret, sadness and guilt for a wrong done. This is my unpleasant situation now for hurting you so badly when you trusted me so.
A million thousand “I’m sorry” I’m willing to say but I know I can’t undo what has been done and it won’t ease the pain in your heart, instead, let me write this to let you know that I regretted all of my bad actions is certainly an unforgivable mistakes. I totally deserve all the anger and resentment from you for what I’ve done.
Furthermore, it also pains me to see you suffering as a result of my misbehavior. A lot of guilt burns in my heart thinking of all the hurt that you must have felt because of my bad behavior and recklessness. Each time I think of you, I get angry with myself because I can imagine all the bitter tears you must have shed when you learned my bad behavior.
I’m feeling like this because I know there is still love for you glowing in my heart. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have cared one bit and moved on. But I don’t want this relationship to end simply because I still care deeply about you and love you with all of my heart. I Truly want you to be happy again with me still being a part of your life.
I understand, a mistake is a mistake. I know I don’t have the right to ask anything from you when I have foolishly betrayed your trust in me. But if you can find it in your heart to forgive me and give me another opportunity to prove to you how much I love you, I will be very, very relieved. For that would mean, I still have the change to love and cherish you, and a chance to make your future a happier one with more laugh and no more tears.
Lastly, I just want to say that I have faith in my love for you. I have faith that we will overcome the odds and make our relationship even better than before. Darya, give me another chance and I have faith that, one day, we will look back at this and glad that we didn’t walk away from each other.
Loving you always.
Anggoro Bentar Sukarno