Dearest Darya

August, 16th 2018

Dearest Darya Pavlovna Ponomaryova

Sometimes, there are simply no words that can adequately express the depth of person’s feeling that are plagued by regret, sadness and guilt for a wrong done. This is my unpleasant situation now for hurting you so badly when you trusted me so.

A million thousand “I’m sorry” I’m willing to say but I know I can’t undo what has been done and it won’t ease the pain in your heart, instead, let me write this to let you know that I regretted all of my bad actions is certainly an unforgivable mistakes. I totally deserve all the anger and resentment from you for what I’ve done.

Furthermore,  it also pains me to see you suffering as a result of my misbehavior. A lot of guilt burns in my heart thinking of all the hurt that you must have felt because of my bad behavior and recklessness. Each time I think of you, I get angry with myself because I can imagine all the bitter tears you must have shed when you learned my bad behavior.

I’m feeling like this because I know there is still love for you glowing in my heart. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have cared one bit and moved on. But I don’t want this relationship to end simply because I still care deeply about you and love you with all of my heart. I Truly want you to be happy again with me still being a part of your life.

I understand, a mistake is a mistake. I know I don’t have the right to ask anything from you when I have foolishly betrayed your trust in me. But if you can find it in your heart to forgive me and give me another opportunity to prove to you how much I love you, I will be very, very relieved. For that would mean, I still have the change to love and cherish you, and a chance to make your future a happier one with more laugh and no more tears.

Lastly, I just want to say that I have faith in my love for you. I have faith that we will overcome the odds and make our relationship even better than before. Darya, give me another chance and I have faith that, one day, we will look back at this and glad that we didn’t walk away from each other.

Loving you always.

Anggoro Bentar Sukarno

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