August 28th – 2:24a
Suddenly Woke up, just got a bad dream, we were arguing again.
I realized how bad I am, treat you bad, and didn’t forgive you was my biggest mistake.
I learn a lot from everything also.
Please forgive me, Dasha.
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Wife-to-be
11:10p
You know, Dasha.. Since we have relationship, remember that you want to marry with me, and yes, I want it also, but, until we’re not ready yet, I was thinking about our financial status.
Secret Chat App
How you spend your weekend?
3.07a
I spent my weekend just alone, doing nothing, and missing you.
How you spend your weekend? Walking with boys? or with your new boyfriend? Enjoying yourself with boys? Get F’ed with your new boyfriend?
Am I Jealous? Yes. Because I love you so much.
If you don’t believe me, it’s ok, but I’m here staying without any girl.
PS: Due to my “running away from civilization”, I can’t write anything about “Insomnia series”, because bad internet connection here, but I need to write it down, or my brain will be exploded.
The moon and the stars
8.40p
Hey, Dashenka
I never tell you this before, you know what? I like to look at the moon and the stars with you, maybe you never realize it, but when we’ve done something and see the world, or stand near our window at night, I always see the moon, and also the stars.
No Sofia or Michael or adopt, everything as you wish
3.05p
I remembered that I want Sofia or Michael, it’s name for our children. You suggested about adoption, I guess you don’t want to have a baby by your own right? Was it because of your health condition?
Continue reading No Sofia or Michael or adopt, everything as you wish
Trying (not) to be peaceful
Just arrived in somewhere peaceful,
But I can’t make myself peaceful, D. I can’t stop thinking about you, my love to you is too strong, and always be.
I remembered all of our happiness and smiles,
and now, i’m in a position that I never think or realize it before,
I’m sorry for everything, please forgive me.
Everything is peaceful, except me. I should take it as my consequences.
I love you, Darya
9.00p
Insomnia Part V – Jealous, alone, and dizzy
2.00a
As usual, I can’t sleep
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Just ran away from my comfort zone, you know that I can’t be productive, half of my soul just gone, I can’t moved on because my love to you is too strong enough, even strong for killing myself.
And I don’t have anybody, I don’t have parents anymore, actually I have them, just considered they’re gone already in my mind, no God. Both my mind and my brain only thinking about you, D. several times I’m trying to do something else, to distract my mind, but always failed.
And the most bad thing, jealous. It’s weekend, what are you doing now? Are you sleeping with cutie guy? Are you love somebody else who can fix you better than me?
The only my friend is this blog, that I can tell anything about myself, just it can’t reply me or give any suggestion.
A Day in The Life
It’s 6am in the morning,
You and I just sleeping, alarm clock just ringing trying to wake people up, but I just switch off that noisy alarm, continue to sleep and hug a girl hear me.
Suddenly…
Between Brain and Heart
One that I can be proud of you after more than 6 months keeping silence is, you can control your heart and moved on, you have great career, healthy, and wealthy with your brain is fully working normally.