I feel lonely.

Can’t figure it out why, today I just went to the lobby, watching people – thinking about nothing, I have no friends.

Actually I have some friends here and also colleagues but хрен с ними, when I feel lonely, I’m trying to listen to the music, walking near hotel until PTC (Palembang Trace Center – типа торовый центр), sometimes check out Instagram, watching your stories

And again I miss you, blyat..

Usually I avoid missing and lonely – the perfect match for me to be completely sad.

For over 6 months, I’m trying to distract anything from feeling lonely – and also be kind to other people as you said on your Instagram or whatsoever, but still I guess I’m failed again, how sucker I am.

PS: Sometimes I wrote your name in my dirty car, kind of crazy about you, eh?

Good night

To be honest, i’m drunk

And I want you to be here, with me.

And I miss you!

9/8 5:50a

Dear Darya

Getting ready for work, yes, I’m working also on Sunday.

Suddenly I got overthinking about you, what should I do with our relationship? Are you trying to give up on it? Why you just keep silence? I wrote e-mails but it ended up with you who didn’t reply my e-mail. Why you do that?

Dear Darya

I just want to meet you, i just want to see you

I miss you so much.

Can we at least talk normally?

Sorry we haven’t talked in a while. I don’t hate you, I’m just not sure if I exist anymore.

4.52a 2/6

Dear Darya

Just had a dream about you, don’t want to tell about it but, I feel that I regret for what I’ve done.

I miss you.

Dear Darya

Are you tying to analyze me lately?

I just feel that, I don’t know, should I trust my intuition or not.

I miss you so much.